Single

Yep. I'm single. I broke up with S on Friday night. I couldn't take not seeing him anymore. He was gone six weeks for trade school, I didn't get to see him the week before he left. We made plans to see each other Tuesday, but he bailed saying he was too tired from whatever he had been so busy doing earlier. So, we made plans for Friday night. I texted him that night when I got done with the school work I had to do, and guess what he said. It was his dad's birthday and eight o'clock at night was too late to hang out anyway. Yeah, maybe if you're five. I know he hangs out with his other friends later than that, so why not me???  The only time I'm available again is this next Friday, but he said he doesn't know if he'll be "blindsided" again. Blindsided? It's your dad's birthday, how is that being blindsided? You've known the man your entire life! I told him I didn't want to wait around to see if he was available anymore and said let's just break up. I try to make time in my life for him, but he can't seem to do that for me. He seemed so fine with it, while I was sitting there crying; it felt more like he broke up with me. I couldn't sleep Friday night, so I watched Psych until 5am, slept a couple hours, and then got up because I knew I had to be ready for class at 12. I was so bummed out Saturday. I ate one and a half pints of ice cream. But, at the end of the day, we somehow texted like normal; and that made me feel better about it. Apparently, he just doesn't want to deal with a relationship right now....Last time I heard that the guy had another girl within the week. Guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens.
I still feel like I love him, though....